Believe
Affy's gone out for lunch, and I'm just getting back from lunch, so I was gonna have the room all to myself for a bit. Only I get in and see this huge teddy bear, like something won from a carnival, sitting on my bed. And it's got to be for me, since Affy's got his stuffed in his bag already.
I didn't think I was going to get a bear. I mean, Vinny had talked about it, but after what had happened, I thought...
There's a card too. Did Affy get a card? I don't know. But there's one waiting for me with my name on it. I pick it up and examine it for a bit, then out of curiosity of what it has to say, I read it.
"What do you say?"
I drop the card, which flutters to the floor, and spin around in surprise. It's luck and the bed that keeps me from falling over completely. I hadn't heard the door open or close. Unless he'd been here when I got in.
"How did you get in here?"
"Affy let me in."
Yeah? And Affy is gonna be so dead when he gets back. This...this is an invasion of privacy. This is the world working against me. This is something I do not want to deal with right now. "Well get out."
"Not until I get an answer." Stubborn. Like always.
"Fine. No."
"Let me rephrase that: not until I get the answer I want." And he's looking at me with unreadable eyes, and fuck him for being arrogant and thinking he'll always get what he wants, and fuck me for knowing him so well that I know he'll get it.
"Okay. Whatever." I shrug.
He smiles slightly, probably hoping for a little more committment from me, but damn it I've already given in, haven't I?
"Hey Brad, it's gonna be great, okay? I promise." He smiles again, and this time his smile wavers, or maybe it's just my imagination, and he's gone.
I sigh and sit down on my bed, pulling the teddy bear over because I need a hug right now but I'm all alone. I hate that it smells like him. I hate that it's soft. I hate that despite everything, I still want to believe everything he promises me.